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Sunday, March 29, 2009
Am I setting myself up?
I think I've mentioned in a prior post that I'm not eating as much salad or veggies as I did when I was on Phase 1, I needed the bulkiness the vegetables provided. I enjoyed making the various simple yet tasty recipes and yet I'm not doing it anymore. Sure my excuse is time, I have very little time these days to myself. My home is a mess, laundry behind schedule, I'm way behind in my business work, I haven't exercised in 3 days (including today), I am taking care of a new puppy single-handedly by myself (doesn't single-handedly mean by myself?).
You see cooking has taken up more time then I thought, hubby got a new job so he's no help or not much anyway and this is not to put him down, he looks forward to coming home at the end of the day and doing nothing, I can't blame him for that.
Doing dishes is a big deal, I have no sink so I have to do them downstairs plus we had no hot water for a few days so my dishes were many and what is that I hear? I'm whining!!!!! I'm giving all the excuses I can find as to why I'm not doing what it is I'm supposed to be doing, which is taking care of myself.
I'm thinking if I take the next 10 days and don't overbook myself, just take this time out for myself I can catch up on everything, but my stepdaughter wants to come visit and that's a big deal because she has 2 children and they take a lot of room and make a big mess, I don't usually mind but now I'm feeling overwhelmed. My stepson who has found himself single after finally breaking off with the devil worshipper has the need to be here all the time too. So what about me? I work from home, I cook, clean, laundry and I forgot what else I do, there is something more I just forgot.
I have to set boundaries!! That's the answer and it's what I need to do for my own peace of mind. Wish me luck, both stepchildren are [young] adults and very sensitive and although I love them with every ounce of my heart, right now I want a break from everyone.
I have to set boundaries (if I keep saying this maybe I'll do it). Then hubby feels guilty because we are turning down the kids, then I feel either sad or resentful because I think "what about me!!!!!!!!"
There are many slogans in AA and the two that come to mind right now are "Living Life on Life's Terms" and "Let Go and Let God".
Time to eat, I'll be back!
Thanks for listening!