I was going to write about something else; my day, how it went, how I felt, but something just came up so I'll share then I have a question for you.
What's on my mind now is me, the hubby and food. I feel as though he watches everything I eat and it makes me feel uncomfortable. Maybe I'm wrong but I'll give you the scenario. Hubby and I eat late, we always have no problem there I guess. Today I took out some sausage patties and some potatoes to eat for dinner. But we had no bread (or shall I say hubby needed cigarettes). So off we went to our local grocer and he saw these sausages links, something called old fashioned sausages. I wasn't really in the mood because I want to be satisfied and these didn't look very satisfying to me, but we ended up buying the sausage links anyway. Hubby announces at the cash that all we'll eat are 3 each, but I don't know what I'll eat yet and I don't like someone else telling me what I can and should eat. So it puts me in a bad mood because if I dare have four I look like a pig. I announce I want 4 (hey I'm a daredevil that way) and hubby looks at me with a look I can't describe cuz I can't read his mind. We go home and are all playful and he says "are you sure you want four?", I said "yes I'm sure." but there's something that is either eating at me about this or him I can't put my finger on it. So I go straight into defensive mode and start telling him how I feel he decides what I should and shouldn't eat and watches me ad nauseum, he replies "I can't do this anymore, you share your feelings with me but I can't say anything. I don't want to know about it anymore then, I can go without the fighting". So I just walked away and said fine to him and that I don't want anything to eat.
Is it just me? Is it PMS? Am I the only one who this happens to? I feel so defensive when it comes to eating in front of him sometimes. I don't like someone telling me what I should or shouldn't eat. He said, we talk about moderation but you want four. So what mister, and it makes me feel like I'm being judged and most importantly by him. I'm probably wrong.
Please tell me if I'm the only one who feels this way, defensive about her eating habits especially with a spouse/boyfriend/mom etc...
Any feedback would be appreciated.
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